Starting over, again.....

Here it is. Another oppertunity, another"fork in the road". I could go on with crappy sayings forever and it won't change where i'm at. Another last chance.

Yesterday I got out of spending 6 days in jail. It was like hell in every manner, including the heat. Three men stuck in a cell for 36 hours at a time, I was lucky enough to have the bed that was literally the floor. Not by some bullshit prison code just last one assigned to cell 4026. I lost 13 pounds in 6 days, most from sweat, and now here I am. Another last chance. I mean come on, how many have you had? While staring at the ceiling while reething in agony from my chronic back pain, half delerious from heat exaustion and pain, I came to the realization that I deserved punishment, but that justice is far from blind, and she's became one nasty bitch over the years. Nothing made sense, unhardened criminal with hardened. Murderers and rapist with petty theft and DUI's. I know that all are wrong, any moron does, but why was I occupying a cell while a rapist got out early for good behavior. Does his new good behavior somehow trump the life he destroyed?? I don't know, but I know for sure that whatever you may think of the justice system, which I have the utmost respect for how it was founded and our founding fathers, they would be pissed with what we have become. Tomorrow I meet with a Probation Officer, and I am sure she is Excellant at her job, but what is her job? Is she going to stop someones freewill, their ability to make choices. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.........

Dealing with unbearable pain, along with other medical problems

here I am at 5:30 AM Eastern time. For the past ten years I have had severe back/bone pain. As of now nothing is helping and it is becoming unbearable. Anyone who has this kind of pain knows what I mean and if you don't, thank God. I have a wife and two kids and I feel like I am missing life go by. Sometimes I feel like my life is an episode on TiVo that I have to catch up on after its played live.

I also have a blood clot in my left leg. This is called a Deep Vein Thrombosis or DVT for short. I am bringing this up because it is a serious silent killer. if the clot breaks lose the clot goes to your lungs leading to a pulminary embolism. In 2005 I had several Pulmanary Emboli in my left lung and got very lucky. If by writing this one person is saved than it was worth the embarrassment of posting it. A DVT feels like a pulled muscle. When I had my first one I woke up one day and had a pain in my left calf. The pain felt like I had pulled the muscle however with my back I am not active enough to have done anything to pull it. It was like this for around three weeks and got progressively worse. than one day at work i was walking to the copier and "poof" it was gone. No pain, nothing. At the time I was happy because of the fact that it was annoying more than anything else. The next day my chest started to hurt. I was 28 and thought I was just sick, mybe a chest cold or msomething similar. The pain got worse over the next couple days. Finally one night I started coughing and blood came up. of course at this time I realized something wasn't right but I had never heard of a DVT so I scheduled an appointment with my family Dr. At the visit I mentioned the "pulled muscle" and he sent me to the hospital for a STAT Cat scan of my lungs. This Literally saved my life. I spent a couple weeks in the hospital and took blood thinners for around a year in a half. Now that I have had a second clot I will be on this medicine for life. The point is please be aware of this. It can save your or someone you loves life.

How does this have anything to do with my back.......now that I have a huge clot in my leg, no Dr will touch me. It is very disapointing. It is almost as if I am being opunished for something that I have no control over!

We will see how much longer I can handle this pain. It feels as if a knife is being stabbed into my ribcage and tailbone all day long.

OK, the suns up now and I am going to try to get my routine 3 hours sleep. Happy days all!

First entry.....

This is my first time with blogging and I am not sure what to expect. I am a 30 year old married father of 2. I have two wonderful kids, Michaela(age 5) and David(age 10). I have been married for for almost 4 years to my wife Jessica. I have never been a quiet person so I hope this will come easy to me.

I live in Salunga, Pennsylvania and am very interested in the political scene. I have decided that this will be my outlet for the next several months to help me cope with the three ring circus that is the Presidential election. I am a Libertarian, so that means I am frustrated most of the time. That also means that I do not have a Presidential Candidate. Of course of the two John McCain is the best of the three but he has many things that scare the hell out of me. But for now we all must focus on Hillary and Barrack(Heckel & Jeckel). The polls in my state are too close for comfort. That really scares me. I am not sure what anyone sees in either Democtratc Candidate, neither one offers anything that will secure a future for my family but I guess part of the roller coaster that is life. So buckle up and sit back, we have a long time until November,

PS I could have talked about the fact that today the media reported on Mr. Obama's slight truth twisting not taking money from BIG OIL(turns out that "private donations thus far equal over 200,000 dollars) or the easy and obvious reports of more Hillary lies about her past history in the red zone as a First Lady. But I decided that I would ease into this because I am a virgin to the Blog scene.

Hopefully more to follow soon.

PPS My sons lacrosse team won another game tonight. That makes them 3-0. He is a proud Hempfield Black Knight. This is his first year and I am still learning so when I am smart enough to talk intelligently about it be prepared I will!

Till next time,

Keith